Heyy (:
Although i know many won't see this but! Still want to thank those who helped and cared so muchhh! <3
Hahaha, even though some did behind the scenes stuffs that can't be mention, some can just spent hours on phone tgt even though we've nvr did it before. and some shoulders i've first used. Ok i wanted to type out all the names but it'll be long so it'll be summarized to just e1 girls, guys, jas, jean,rach, heart stitcher, pri schl friends, strangers tht i've nvr met, fb ppl, and usual phone partners :B i'll nvr forget thank you enough for making me less painful. You can never know how much it means to just receive smses from you all saying to cheer up or crack up jokes to make me smile (: and to tsg, mr haddad! for not questioning. :) And advices which i didn't hear it in, >< i'm sorry. I love you all some muchhh! <3 I'll walk out of this.

I will forget about unhappy past, but give me time.
And to the surprise letter <3, it meant alot to me.

Hey.
Hm, sigh! WTF is wrong with youuuuu. why you can stuff words that i never ever said before into my mouth. I mean, you're really crossing the limit. And if you really do spare a thought, you won't jump to conclusions without clarifying with me. If you ain't standing neutral, then maybe i shouldn't waste my time on you too. I mean she did tell you right? But you didn't listen to her did you? You think i want all of this to happen? you think i'm happy with all these? i mean if you're pissed, i'm even more pissed than you. but i never even tell you off, or scold you or whatever. can't you understand that i don't want us to become anymore worse? If you've got the heart, you won't do this, even though you were not the main party that makes this happen, but your stand and trust for who already proves i won't be able to get you listening. All i got to say is, we and the rest didn't purposely left you out or whatever you're thinking of. And really, if you understand me, you know that's the last thing i would want to do.

Hey.
It's me and my tissue box here. 
): YOU FUCKING TORE MY HEART.
when you say spit everything now, say what you want to say.
do you even mean it? :/ why must you hide things, why must you lie, why must it be now, why must you make me stand up and fall back to square one again.. and why must it be her.
you could be honest from the start, i could still forgive. 
Because no matter how they tell me it was, i believed in what you said instead. 
Now, i can never find back trust, i don't know where they went anymore, maybe they're gone. or maybe they long went extinct since from the second i got cheated by a dozen times. 
The worst thing is, my heart won't even listen to my mind. why can't i control it. :/ 
It stills begs me to return to the place where it bleeds the most. 
Stupid heart :/ you have no brains at all. 




And you, 
don't stand in front of me a second, then stab me from the back.
regretted for caring you when you got hurt, regretted for helping you to scold him when you both were tgt. regretted for the time i sacrificed for you when i know that the other party wouldn't be happy.
After all what i stupidly did, this is your payback to me. 
Still said you understand me, know whats its like, then now? I am just so disappointed in you. 

We're burnt.

FYE'S FINALLY OVER.

My heart has a broken arrow.

I wanna have this!




when i'm on your mind, i'm on cloud nine